I need You

I have had some difficult moments over the last couple of months. At this time in my life I feel like David, when he sinned with Bathsheba.

I have made poor choice after poor choice (alongside some good ones). My repentance and sorrow at the moment is more about me than it is about God, but I hopeful that I will be brought to the place where I will see 'it is against You that I have sinned'. Somehow, God wove David's decisions together to make something good. In many areas I haven't seen the 'good', but at this moment I feel hopeful.

So, David had a friend sent from God to speak directly into sin. The wounding led him to God in a significant way. He is not/was not identified by His sin. That is a hard lesson for me. I have trouble separating what i do from who I am, this goes for things both good and bad. I didn't realize how deeply this affects the way I live my life.

I too have friends who speak truth to me. I might have been swallowed by despair and regret except for God bringing community to me. These people have brought light to my darkness by..

1. helping me remember who God is and who I am
2. showing me hope even in the darkness

AND

3. granting me acceptance and love (when I was tempted to let shame rule).

I have a tattoo of the Chinese characters for faith, hope, and love on my ankle. I did this to remind myself that those three words sum up life. Anyway, it was nice to be offered faith, hope, and love by my friends when I was in need of comfort.

Today I remembered this Gospel song that I really love. It's about community, so I thought I would put the words here. Enjoy!


I NEED YOU TO SURVIVE

Chorus:
I need you
You need me
We’re all a part of God’s body
Stand with me
Agree with me
We’re all a part of God’s body
It is his will that every need be supplied
You are important to me
I need you to survive (2x)

I pray for you
You pray for me
I love you
I need you to survive
I won’t harm you
With words from my mouth
I love you
I need you to survive

by Hezekaih Walker