I have been a wee bit busy over the last couple of weeks. Well, actually the last month. I have started two new jobs. Exciting times in Manhappenin Kansas. In the midst of starting new jobs I have been dealing with re-entry from East Asia. Now, I don't have any really interesting things to share, but it has been a while since I have posted. So this is all I have right now.

A part of one of my new jobs in support raising. This part has been a blessing and a curse. I have been humbled and made desperately aware of my need for Christ. He is the one that provides even though it is usually through human agents. My community has been encouraging me to trust God. In fact, last week as I prayed about specific needs God provided very practically. I needed gas in my car and food in the pantry. I didn't know how it would happen, but the family of God surprised and overwhelmed, so this week as I pray it is a little easier to trust God. I still don't really like being dependent on God in this way. I would rather have what I need and not have to ask people. To be honest, asking people for money makes me feel like a beggar. I am aware of these thoughts now and I think that is half of the battle I am facing to humble myself before Jesus.

I have been thinking about what it means that God is Sovereign. I have heard this character trait of God thrown around a lot lately. I think I have used God's sovereignty as a cover for my own lack of personal responsiblity. What does it meant to pray over a decision and decide? Is my hope that God helps me make a good decision so that I don't fail at something and if I do I can say it was God's will. Or, do I pray and trust God for mercy and direction. If I don't hear correctly God is still Sovereign and He has promised to work all things out for His glory and our ultimate good. Anyway, these are some thoughts I wanted to give light to. Please let me know your thoughts. I know these are things we will be thinking about until Jesus returns. However, please disagree. We learn by good-natured discussion.